Annie

I hope he doesn't hit her...if he hits her, than I don't know if there's anything I can do to stop myself from hitting him back. But really, she's the last one who should be beat, especially before me, or my friends...

So I asked Sam to come sing for the band...yeah I know, it's a girl and we're kinda metal, but since the start, I've always wanted to sound alternative and different, and having a girl be there while me n Greg shred away would really add something the industry has yet to come across. So I hope norm doesn't throw a fit every five minutes. If he's gonna be that way, and just bitch about the new lead singer, then I don't really see any reason in continuing being a band at all. But regardless, I want to keep writing music.

So I'm in seabee idol eh? singing johnny cash...so excited, I don't even like him. Everyone's like aww c'mon Jeff, Johnny Cash is the greatest, then it hit me. People suddenly seem so much more talented from six feet below the ground, maybe I should dig him up and see how well he could sing. Like, Nirvana, gained outstanding popularity with the death of Kurt. Pantera jumped into the mainstream again when former guitarist dimebag died, and he suddenly became the greatest player of all time. Then poor ol'Johnny, passed and they made a movie about him. Three fucking chords people, three fucking chords. It's not that impressive.

School Just Complicates things

yeah, so my mom's goin' crazy cause I got a 72% on a test, oh heaven forbid! Maybe next time I should fail and see if she beats me. I have a 75 in the class, and that should be enough to satisfy her it's above average and it's my lowest mark, she should be glad. I could be one of the people getting 30s but I don't. I try my hardest to satisfy my parents but they just don't give a shit, sometimes I think they don't even like me. I don't play hockey like they want me to, I don't get marks in the 90s and above, I don't go outside every free moment I have no matter how scarce they are. It's just weird.

I talked with Liz at Grease today, and I learned that she really has no aspirations, its all downhill from here, or so she thinks. She says she'll just be a teacher someday, and doesn't really have a dream of an ideal life, which to me seems silly. Then she told me she wants to go to dance school, but proceeds to tell me she'll never be accepted and should just settle into teaching the rest of her life. So I keep trying to tell her to keep her head up, that soon she'll be independant, and free of the folks that have tortured her until now. It's sad really, I wish the best for her and all she gets is crud.

So Grease today was alright, I spent most of it getting in touch with Keith Whipple and Liz, occasionally Derek Hiltchie, they're really cool guys, I hope we all make it for Seabee Idol, which, will be hard enough. All the girls are soooo good, and I don't think I'll add up to the standards of the audience...that is...if I do make it.

I guess every thing's alright over this end of cyberspace though, at least for now, so get off your asses and stop worrying about me y'all, you've got bigger fish to fillet.

Peace X
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